eventful day. had pw session in the morning, which ended up with us playing some stupid great eastern life insurance board game online... partly coz i wanted to try for the money... $2000 dollars for top prize... but the other scores are like damn hard to beat. here's the link if you want to take a look: www.lifeisgreat.com.sg
then had lunch with karen and mj after that.after we were done eating these 2 people popped out and asked us to do a survey. guess what? i did the EXACT same survey in march/april. when me and kit and cyn were eating together at kap. very good. so i stoned there while watching karen and mj do the survey and then the woman who gave me and karen the survey started to talk to me... asking me the EXACT same starting questions as previously: "how's njc? yada yada blah blah blah..." horrors of horror is that i actually enjoyed talking to the woman... halfway through heard mj crapping to the guy surveyor about ambitions or something like that... then my dad came and i had to go and i think i saw karen give me that look that said: "why are you leaving me here alone with her?!" felt a little guilty and sorry about leaving karen there alone... just right the woman had started preaching a little bout God and purpose in life that kind of things...
anyway got my new phone today! ok maybe the model isn't much to be happy about... nokia 3120... but at least its a major improvement from my old 3310. persuaded my parents to get it for me because my old phone was going bonkers switching off at the most imopportune times, like halfway through a phone call or by itself though i'm not doing anything. yep so i am like trying to customize my phone but can't do much since all my old pics and ringtones are all gone...
this year no maf(mid-autumn festival) celebrations for me... missed the ny one, didn't feel like going for the nj one, and couldn't make it for the hc one. sad case.
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I can't hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]
~Linkin Park [By Myself]~

posted by munky at 23:18